So Much it Hurts

Today  

marked a

passage 

in our lives

You see, 

today

13.5 years 

flashed 

before our

eyes

The cherub like

chubby

adorable

cute 

bundle

of 

squishy

kissy

sweetness

Image combined of

me and

her 

father

That once 

I could hold

and 

enwrap

and 

surround

and 

hold onto

I had to let go

You're probably not old enough, fair reader

to remember the old Eastman Kodak commercial song:

"Turn around

and you're 

Two

Turn around

and you're 

Four

Turn around 

and you're a

Young man 

Going 

Out of the Door.

Yeah, I'm emotional.     

I love her.  

SO MUCH IT HURTS.

Today is different.

We dropped her off at camp. 

The house is still and quiet.  Somehow empty.

The puppies are wondering where she is.

I am left, alone

thinking about

the rest of my life.   And what will I do

if she ever leaves.  

Yep, today is a passage.

We were so excited that she was nervous.  

She wanted US to drive her to camp.

When we said goodbye she almost cried.

She loves US.

Still.

Despite us.

She loves us

and we love her

so much it HURTS.

So in the meantime

I will work

and wait

and hope the time 

goes quickly

and then I'll

plan 

what we'll do

when she gets home

and it's all normal again.

Or...will it be?

No, 

I hope

it's not

normal but 

better.

Time goes fast, fair friend.  

Shower them with love while you can!   

Take every opportunity 

to show,

and share, 

and be 

with them.  

Your precious treasures.

Wait, not my precious treasure.

His, created in His likeness

and Image

for His purposes, 

and work

and glory.

But ours to love and cherish

and train, and lavish with love.

Yep, I love her So Much

It hurts.

Just wanted to share!